penat cam lahanat

ermm…im so tired rite now…really really reallly tiredd…huhu…tomoro got submission but then the thing that suppose to be submit tomoro isn’t finish yet…adeh…so tak larat nak siapkan today…im so fucking shock when they told me bout the submission tomoro…coz i really thought that the dateline was next week…demmit sungguh….so bile dikire2 mase yg tinggal nih…i think i can’t…its not that im giving up…but there’s still a lot of thing to be done and yet the clocks are still ticking…and damn sure that im not gonna finish it by tomoro…so that’s why i decide to wrote something here…huhu…

this sem suxx…everything seems like doesnt go well…ntah kenaper pun tatau ar…rase cam tade semangat jer sem nih…haihhh…to be honest…there’s a time i feel like giving up myself on studies…btul2 dah tak larat…but then teringat all the pengorbanan and susah payah my parents nak bayar my fees kat mmu nih…than ku gagahi jua untuk meneruskan perjuangan nih…huhu…mmg anak tak kenang jasa ar kalo aku stop tengah jalan camtu je kan…so everytime when im feeling like losing my grip…i always keep on thinking of my parents…they’re my only reason im still going on till now…

ermm…sooo tak larat…even nk bkk mate pun seksa gile da nih…better off now…sambung sket lagi ape yg patut…then nak slip…baik aku rest cukup2 so weekend nih aku leh settle sume2…daripade aku stay up mlm nih tapi aper hasil pun tade…huhu…adehh…zzzzz

awek berkebaya merah…

erm…baru jer nk pasang mimpi…ade plak yg simbah air kt muke aku nih…nak marah cam tak patut ar plak…sbb yg simbah air tuh pun mmber sendri gak…so terime je ar…aper nak buat kan…ermm…

awek yg aku citer sblum nih tuh…ader plak yg curik line…siap da cucuk2 da pun…so disbbkan aku baru jer nak panaskan enjin…lebih baik kalau aku matikan jer terus…boleh jer kalo aku nak kejar balik bile enjin da panas…tapi biar ar kot…wat bazir minyak aku jer nnti…minyak da ar mahal skang nih…heh…

lagipun yg curik line tuh bknnye calang2…2-3 bulan skali die pasang yg baru…hebat tak hebat ar kan…kat tmpat aku nih bersepah2 dah die punye yg lame…sampai tak terkire…penah gak aku tanyer…aper masalah ko dok pasang buang pasang buang nih…die kate belum jumpe yg sehati sejiwa…heh…senang jer alasan die…and kalo tak salah aku skang nih pun tgh dok pasang lagi…tapi da adjust yg baru lak…so mmg out of my league ar die nih…leh jer nak compete…dapat tak dapat belakang kire ar kan…tapi bile pikir balik..member sendri nih…taper ar…kasik bukak jalan besar2 untuk die…mane ar tau kot2 yg nih mmg dienye soul mate ke kan…heh…aku just tumpang hepi je ar…

neway…awek yg aku cerite nih mmg cun giler ar…n kalo ikutkan hati mmg leh wat gaduh gak ar ngan mmber aku nih…tapi tu pasal ar org tua2 kate kalo ikutkan hati…’mati’….luckily aku tak sempat nak kenal pun ngan awek nih…and thats why without hesitation aku decide untuk mengundur diri…ade rezeki sok…maner ar tau…awek nih dikechiwakan oleh mmber aku nih ker…at that time ar this ‘hero’ will come to the rescue…hehh…

You can chase a butterfly all around the field and never catch it, but if you sit there calmly it will just come and sit on your lap.

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ermm..well, for some reason i do not update this blog regularly nemore…i dun hav nething to write bcoz my life hav been a quite miserable lately…so i dun wan to note nething that would make me feel uneasy when looking at it later…ermm…

so many thing happends recently…but there’s nothing interesting bout it…almost everything that happends to me recently makes me feel so tired and quite depressing…i dunno why…maybe this lonely life thingy has make me became someone that dunno how to enjoy life nemore…every single thing could bring tensioness to me…haihh…

last weekend..i’ve join a briefing and group binding session for the sekolah@mmu program…the objective are to get to know our committee members and to create a bind between the hi-com with all the biro under them…they put me under protocol eventhough i do not know nething bout it…well i guess…it’s time for me to learned something new here in mmu…but hey..i dun wan to talk bout this binding thing or wutsoever…the reason im telling bout all these…is because i found someone that attract my attention there…heh..someone cute…its not like im falling for her..its just that i feel like…ermm..how to describe ek…i just like to watch her laa…kinda like her smile..heh,…just like the first time i saw the person that i like before this…sigh…neway, i still do not know her name,her id, her wutever la…meaning i dunno nething bout her…and maybe i shouldn’t…dun want to be attach to her yet…just wanna watch from the distance and be her secret admirer for a while..hehh…like i said…its not that ive falling for her…i just like to watch her…:)…